* Relationships .

Okay well in judging by the title you already know what i`m about to ramble on about . Everything i`m about to write about are my own personal experiences .

Now my first boyfriend .. i think i was around 13 ? i don`t remember. anyway . he was this kid that i barely knew , all i knew was that he had dated a couple of these girls i knew . i get home one day && my mom tells me he had called . i`m thinking " how the fuck he get my number " . i shrugged it off until the next day he had walked up to me in school and told me he had got my number from one of my friends . So that night he had called me again to let me know that he liked me && blah blah blah you know the whole song && dance guys pull when they wanna date ya ? well he had asked me out && nervous young ass said yes . so we had this whole " we`ll see each other in school && make out in the hallways " type of relationship . i was as giddy as they come because you know finally I had a boyfriend .. the little ugly girl with thick hair && glasses FINALLY had a boyfriend ! so we went out for a couple months and then i had my first heartbreak . he had cheated on me with this girl my best friends was friends with . now back then i was still a virgin and i was DEVASTATED when i found out he had sex with this girl . now she was the one to tell me this , she called me one day while i was on the phone with my then boyfriend . so she tells me what happened && i click over in tears && tell him we can`t go out anymore . after this he tells me he " needs " to see me . so you know like a dumbass i walked up the stree to see him where then he pleaded for me to go back out with him . && again like a dumbass i agreed . now you won`t believe what happens after we start dating again for another couple months .. YOU GUESSED IT ! he had sex with the same girl . so yeah you already know .. that had to end . that ladies && gentlemen is the story of Mea`s first boyfriend :)


Okay now lemme move on to my latest ex . I met him through one of my best friends . he just happened to be her cousin . when i first met him i didn`t really think much of him because at the time i had a boyfriend . so one winter night i`m in albany with her and we`re at her aunts house where she was getting her hair done or something like that . we`re sitting in the living room and he keeps looking at me all funny . i`m not paying any attention because ( not to sound conceited or anything ) but guys tend to stare at me alot . so we leave the house and we go up the street to the store and i get this phone call . on the other end it`s this guy with a really sexy voice and he`s talking to me && i`m like who the fuck is this ?! so we`re going back && forth like that until my friend took the phone and hung up . so for the next few days he does the same thing until i finally realized who it was . so after a few months of not talking to each other i had the same friend over at my house one night && kept telling her how cute her cousin was && blah blah blah . A few days after that we`re sitting in her room && she calls him && tells him i think he`s cute . i`m all embaressed && shit so she puts me on the phone with him && he asks me out . now this was on january 12 , 2006 . see i even remember dates && shit . so for the next couple of months it`s all fine && dandy . we talk everyday i go see him every now && then since we don`t live in the same town . now the thing you have to know about me && him is that we are COMPLETELY differant . i`m this little mixed girl from the suburbs && he`s the thugged out type that lives in the " hood " .. you know the drug dealing type . i think it was because of the big differance i was so attracted to him , not to mention he`s hot . but anyways . i think it started in march to where he didn`t call as often . now by this time i was starting to like him ALOT . during the month of march he did not call me me ONCE .. or maybe it was april i don`t know . but yeah . he had ignored me for a month ! now during this time i was hearing all types of rumors about how he was fucking other girls && what not && spent many nights crying over this but i didn`t give up on it .. which looking back i should of . but anyways . during that summer we had started to hang out more . now i started to notice he was becoming very hostile towards me . but you know by THAT time my naive ass thought i was in love . he started to yell at me all the time , scream at me , yoke me up things like that . oh yeah i`m leaving out something major .. he has gotten ALOT of money from me . for petty shit like tickets or he`d get arrested , money just because , weed && things like that . so yeah i had invested alot in him but you know just like a typical guy he didn`t appreciate any of it . by the end of our relationship i became terrified of him dead ass . so by the end of the summer we had broke up . now the NEXT year like right after i turned 17 we had started to date again . now this time i was CONVINCED it was gonna be differant . you know how most girls are like that right . well anyways . this time i actually had a pregnancy scare which really woke me up . cos this time we dated he completely ignored me . i spent a long time trying to get over this one . something like a year && some change ? so yeah this relationship had the biggest affect on me . it literally killed me . like if anyone has ever been through a serious heart break .. my heart goes out to you because i know how it feels .


so this brings me to my current boyfriend . after my last boyfriend i really was NOT interested in seeing anyone else like AT ALL . i had this whole idea about how all guys were players && assholes && neglectful . but THEN i met him :); we were just friends in the begining . i have alot of guy friends so i didn`t mind having one more you know ? not to sound cliche` or anything but he really is differant . we would talk for hours at a time about pretty much nothing && he always made me laugh . after a couple weeks i started to get this HUGE crush on him . but have you read about the last boyfriend i had ? ooh yeah i deffinately didn`t wanna have another boyfriend after that . i`m not gonna front i was scared ! but as time went on the idea of dating him was deffinately appealing to me . but yeah to make a long story short we`ve been together for like .. almost 6 months ? we fight like we`re married i swear .. he pisses me off .. he annoys me .. && he makes me madder then anyone else can .. BUT i love him && when you love someone all that doesn`t matter .. right ? i mean i have never thought about having a " future " with any guy .. but this one makes me think .. not sound all lovey dovey or anything . ;)

but yeah . i felt like rambling about something today . thanks for reading :)

* Lemme Introduce Myself :)

okay well being that this is my first post lemme tell you a little about myself . i hate rambling on about myself so i`m just going to list things you might not know or things i feel you should know .

- i have alotta nicknames . just call me mea tho i like that best .
- i`m 8teen .
- i talk alot .
- i curse in every sentance .
- i love white jeans .
- i wanna work in the financial field one day but i will always have dreams of being a district attorney .
- i`m addicted to Vault .
- my mother is my best friend .
- i have a boyfriend ; whom i know i`m gonna be stuck with for a while .
- i`m bossy .
- reality shows are so addicting .
- i hate my laptop .
- judge me && i`ll judge you .
- very opinionated , it gets me in trouble very often .
- extremely blunt ; it gets me in trouble alot because usually people mistake it for being mean .
- i hate hot weather .
- r&b music is my addiction ; especially the old slow jams ! oh yesss .
- i consider myself always right .
- i`m stubborn && loud .
- i`m a nerd at heart .
- my family is my everything .
- i put my heart && soul into the AIDS Council of Northeaster NY - my uncle died of AIDS when i was younger && he was my everything so i make it my personal mission to do everything i can for the cause .
- i hate lil wayne but i`ll listen to some of his songs .
- i`m scared of commitment .
- i spend money faster then i get it .
- victoria`s secret is my favorite store in the world .
- either i love something or i hate it . no gray area with me .
- i give advice that i myself can`t take .
- i change my mind as often as i change clothes .
- i hate conflict .
- i speak a little italian =)
- i`m half black && half white && i love it .
- i can get along with anyone until they fuck me over .
- i can sleep all day .
- criticism is not something i can take .
- when i say i don`t care about something i really don`t unless it has something to do with my family or my boyfriend .
- i love meeting to new people && doing new things ; i believe you should try everything once .


well that`s it for now .. hopefully you feel like you know me a little bit better haha .
until next time !

* Mea .

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