* What You DON`T Know .

just passing some time before i go out . so here`s a list of things you may not know about me :)

1. i`ve had the same cell phone number since i was 14 .
2. i collect bags ; condoms ; && pajama pants .
3. i barely wear sneakers .
4. hot sauce makes me sick .
5. i`ve lost count of how many people i`ve kissed .
6. i hate sleeping alone .
7. i take things way to personally .
8. i speak italian .
9. i`m scared of age ; spiders ; death ; clowns ; && grilled cheese .
10. i hate being single .

* What`s Your Life Like ?

yess i know you all have missed me <3 i`m on break so it`s been a little hectic but yeah . since i`m getting older && all i`ve been thinking alot lately about how i want my life to turn out . i mean usually it`s before i go to bed . that`s the only time i really have to think about things . && i think i have everything all planned out . well in terms of where i want everything to turn out . after i graduate college ( in about 5 years ) i wanna work on WALL STREET ! now let me tell you . the THOUGHT of wall street makes me wanna run around screaming . i`ve been into stock && investing since i was in the 6th grade . my lil geek ass was in " the stock club " ahaha . i`ve been through a LOT of career choices i`ve wanted to be everything from a hair stylest to a brain surgeon . but i think i fit best in the finance field . my mother is also in finance which is funny cos i swore i would never turn out like her ( which isn`t a bad thing ) . while working on wall street i wanna keep being involved in the volunteering i do for the aids council because after my uncle died i swore it would be my lifes mission to help people that were just like him . busy life right ? lol . i deff. wanna be with someone throughout that all . i mean i`ve always been a person that loves to be in relationships . but even thought i`m only 18 ( 9teen next MONTH ! ) i`m so ready to just be with one person for a LONG time you know what i mean ? it`s kind of a trend in my family find someone young ; get married in your mid 20`s && that`s that . && i don`t want that " trend " to stop with me you know ? cos by the time i hit mid 20`s i want a rock on my finger LOL . no but seriously i do . i really don`t want kids or anything until i`m wayyy older because with the career path i`m on there`s really gonna be NO time . but yeah .. there`s my life plan ;]

on to something else . CHRISTMAS ! i loved christmas this year because i have a new appreciation for it . since i`m away at college && everything i never get to see my family ever && i finally got to see them all && i loved it . 2 days straight of those crazy bastards . i loved it ! i hope everyone loved their christmas && got what they wanted <3


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* How To Act .

okay this blog was inspired by a convo i had a while back with one of my best friends . some boyfriends i guess are a little rusty on knowing what to do && what not to do . so imma help you guys out . imma give you some do`s && don`ts .

Do :
txt your girl just because .
say i love you atleast once a day .
pay her more attention then all your other female friends .
try && remember things she tells you .
make her feel wanted .
try && see her as often as you can if it`s long distance .
ask her how her day is going .
be interested in what she`s saying .
remember her birthday .
memorize her phone number .
accept all her friends .
let her have male friends .. after all YOUR her man .
ask her about work/school
make sure all your female friends know you have a girl .


DON`TS :
DON`T call her a bitch .
DON`T associate with bitches that have tryed to fuck you in the past ( my friend had a big problem with this )
DON`T compare her to your ex girlfriend .
DON`T scream at her constantly .
DON`T steal from her .
DON`T talk to her whenever you feel like .
DON`T ignore her for the next bitch .
DON`T tell her you don`t care about what she has to say .
DON`T dictate her life .
DON`T lie to her .
DON`T make her feel not wanted .
DON`T call her a slut / whore / hoe / smut
DON`T act like she`s not your girlfriend .
DON`T deny her .
DON`T pay other bitches more attention then your girlfriend .
DON`T lie to her about the girls you talk to .
DON`T make her upset a night before she has to wake up early / take a test .
DON`T hang out with your baby mother by yourself while having a girlfriend .
DON`T give her number to your ex`s .
DON`T allow your friends to hit on her .
DON`T tell her how to look i.e what color her hair should be .
DON`T beat her . or touch her like that in ANY way .


to be continued <3

gr . i shoulda put this in the last post . but whatever .

my sites :
myspace.com/mixxedxmamii
flickr.com/designerdrugs
twitter.com/_bambina
facebook - Mea Perry
officialbabydolls.com/forum - bella


that`s all for now <3

* My Loves .

now let me tell YOU .
these 2 albums are on repeat almost all day everyday lately .
now .. i HATE kanye .. but this album is addiction . i love it .
t.i. .. apparently has such a great album because his ass has been on house arrest so he doesn't have anything better to do .. but props to him for having one of the best albums out right now .

side not - i have 4 MORE DAYS OF CLASSES LEFT ! next tuesday i`m getting wasted .. then wednesday morning i`m going HOME ! aah my vacation is gonna be the best . partying .. christmas .. more partying .. seeing my lover ! i can`t wait :)

* December 1st .

As you should know . Today is World AIDS Day . I recognize this day every year && any other AIDS related day like throughout the whole year . I have dedicated alot of time && effort in support of finding a cure for AIDS and i volunteer at the AIDS Council Of Northeastern New York . My uncle died of AIDS when i was 8 years old && i have made it my soul purpose in life to carry on his work . Before he died he was on several experimental drugs && most of them made him sick . My uncle .. in a nutshell .. was my world . I loved him more then anything in this world . I still do actually . Everytime i visit his gravesite i sit && have a conversation with him as crazy as it sounds haha ! yes anyways . just letting you all know what today was && why it` so special to me !


oh yes . i ordered uggs the other day . their so sexy . wanna see ?



sexy right !
now i`m working on getting this really cute abercrombie&&fitch coat which looks like this



aah i love it !

* Relationships .

Okay well in judging by the title you already know what i`m about to ramble on about . Everything i`m about to write about are my own personal experiences .

Now my first boyfriend .. i think i was around 13 ? i don`t remember. anyway . he was this kid that i barely knew , all i knew was that he had dated a couple of these girls i knew . i get home one day && my mom tells me he had called . i`m thinking " how the fuck he get my number " . i shrugged it off until the next day he had walked up to me in school and told me he had got my number from one of my friends . So that night he had called me again to let me know that he liked me && blah blah blah you know the whole song && dance guys pull when they wanna date ya ? well he had asked me out && nervous young ass said yes . so we had this whole " we`ll see each other in school && make out in the hallways " type of relationship . i was as giddy as they come because you know finally I had a boyfriend .. the little ugly girl with thick hair && glasses FINALLY had a boyfriend ! so we went out for a couple months and then i had my first heartbreak . he had cheated on me with this girl my best friends was friends with . now back then i was still a virgin and i was DEVASTATED when i found out he had sex with this girl . now she was the one to tell me this , she called me one day while i was on the phone with my then boyfriend . so she tells me what happened && i click over in tears && tell him we can`t go out anymore . after this he tells me he " needs " to see me . so you know like a dumbass i walked up the stree to see him where then he pleaded for me to go back out with him . && again like a dumbass i agreed . now you won`t believe what happens after we start dating again for another couple months .. YOU GUESSED IT ! he had sex with the same girl . so yeah you already know .. that had to end . that ladies && gentlemen is the story of Mea`s first boyfriend :)


Okay now lemme move on to my latest ex . I met him through one of my best friends . he just happened to be her cousin . when i first met him i didn`t really think much of him because at the time i had a boyfriend . so one winter night i`m in albany with her and we`re at her aunts house where she was getting her hair done or something like that . we`re sitting in the living room and he keeps looking at me all funny . i`m not paying any attention because ( not to sound conceited or anything ) but guys tend to stare at me alot . so we leave the house and we go up the street to the store and i get this phone call . on the other end it`s this guy with a really sexy voice and he`s talking to me && i`m like who the fuck is this ?! so we`re going back && forth like that until my friend took the phone and hung up . so for the next few days he does the same thing until i finally realized who it was . so after a few months of not talking to each other i had the same friend over at my house one night && kept telling her how cute her cousin was && blah blah blah . A few days after that we`re sitting in her room && she calls him && tells him i think he`s cute . i`m all embaressed && shit so she puts me on the phone with him && he asks me out . now this was on january 12 , 2006 . see i even remember dates && shit . so for the next couple of months it`s all fine && dandy . we talk everyday i go see him every now && then since we don`t live in the same town . now the thing you have to know about me && him is that we are COMPLETELY differant . i`m this little mixed girl from the suburbs && he`s the thugged out type that lives in the " hood " .. you know the drug dealing type . i think it was because of the big differance i was so attracted to him , not to mention he`s hot . but anyways . i think it started in march to where he didn`t call as often . now by this time i was starting to like him ALOT . during the month of march he did not call me me ONCE .. or maybe it was april i don`t know . but yeah . he had ignored me for a month ! now during this time i was hearing all types of rumors about how he was fucking other girls && what not && spent many nights crying over this but i didn`t give up on it .. which looking back i should of . but anyways . during that summer we had started to hang out more . now i started to notice he was becoming very hostile towards me . but you know by THAT time my naive ass thought i was in love . he started to yell at me all the time , scream at me , yoke me up things like that . oh yeah i`m leaving out something major .. he has gotten ALOT of money from me . for petty shit like tickets or he`d get arrested , money just because , weed && things like that . so yeah i had invested alot in him but you know just like a typical guy he didn`t appreciate any of it . by the end of our relationship i became terrified of him dead ass . so by the end of the summer we had broke up . now the NEXT year like right after i turned 17 we had started to date again . now this time i was CONVINCED it was gonna be differant . you know how most girls are like that right . well anyways . this time i actually had a pregnancy scare which really woke me up . cos this time we dated he completely ignored me . i spent a long time trying to get over this one . something like a year && some change ? so yeah this relationship had the biggest affect on me . it literally killed me . like if anyone has ever been through a serious heart break .. my heart goes out to you because i know how it feels .


so this brings me to my current boyfriend . after my last boyfriend i really was NOT interested in seeing anyone else like AT ALL . i had this whole idea about how all guys were players && assholes && neglectful . but THEN i met him :); we were just friends in the begining . i have alot of guy friends so i didn`t mind having one more you know ? not to sound cliche` or anything but he really is differant . we would talk for hours at a time about pretty much nothing && he always made me laugh . after a couple weeks i started to get this HUGE crush on him . but have you read about the last boyfriend i had ? ooh yeah i deffinately didn`t wanna have another boyfriend after that . i`m not gonna front i was scared ! but as time went on the idea of dating him was deffinately appealing to me . but yeah to make a long story short we`ve been together for like .. almost 6 months ? we fight like we`re married i swear .. he pisses me off .. he annoys me .. && he makes me madder then anyone else can .. BUT i love him && when you love someone all that doesn`t matter .. right ? i mean i have never thought about having a " future " with any guy .. but this one makes me think .. not sound all lovey dovey or anything . ;)

but yeah . i felt like rambling about something today . thanks for reading :)

* Lemme Introduce Myself :)

okay well being that this is my first post lemme tell you a little about myself . i hate rambling on about myself so i`m just going to list things you might not know or things i feel you should know .

- i have alotta nicknames . just call me mea tho i like that best .
- i`m 8teen .
- i talk alot .
- i curse in every sentance .
- i love white jeans .
- i wanna work in the financial field one day but i will always have dreams of being a district attorney .
- i`m addicted to Vault .
- my mother is my best friend .
- i have a boyfriend ; whom i know i`m gonna be stuck with for a while .
- i`m bossy .
- reality shows are so addicting .
- i hate my laptop .
- judge me && i`ll judge you .
- very opinionated , it gets me in trouble very often .
- extremely blunt ; it gets me in trouble alot because usually people mistake it for being mean .
- i hate hot weather .
- r&b music is my addiction ; especially the old slow jams ! oh yesss .
- i consider myself always right .
- i`m stubborn && loud .
- i`m a nerd at heart .
- my family is my everything .
- i put my heart && soul into the AIDS Council of Northeaster NY - my uncle died of AIDS when i was younger && he was my everything so i make it my personal mission to do everything i can for the cause .
- i hate lil wayne but i`ll listen to some of his songs .
- i`m scared of commitment .
- i spend money faster then i get it .
- victoria`s secret is my favorite store in the world .
- either i love something or i hate it . no gray area with me .
- i give advice that i myself can`t take .
- i change my mind as often as i change clothes .
- i hate conflict .
- i speak a little italian =)
- i`m half black && half white && i love it .
- i can get along with anyone until they fuck me over .
- i can sleep all day .
- criticism is not something i can take .
- when i say i don`t care about something i really don`t unless it has something to do with my family or my boyfriend .
- i love meeting to new people && doing new things ; i believe you should try everything once .


well that`s it for now .. hopefully you feel like you know me a little bit better haha .
until next time !

* Mea .

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